today is the day.fyi, this days are the most miserable days in my entire life. i have faced a lot throughout my life but this days are the worst so far. for the first days of July month 2011, i shed a lot of tears. mata memang bengkak-bengkak lah kan. wondering why this thing happen to me. did he gone insane? is it my fault? am i the one to blame? i didn't do enough, didn't i? i wasn't good enough, wasn't i? did i fail to be a good girl for him?or did you? why do you got angry? i am mad too. but i never seem to find a way to express my feelings all this while. am i wrong for doing that? for hiding my feelings? i thought i was.